Children of Alcoholics – Share Their Stories

Fearful of the Next Moment

I got everything on my list for Christmas after my parents were divorced when I was 11 years old.  My mom would spend the rest of the year paying off the debt.  Christmas gifts were so important to her because when she was a Read more

Children of Alcoholics – Share Their Stories

Missed My Childhood to Play Parent

My parents would fight almost every day when I was little.  I was afraid of my dad because he drank a lot.  I never knew what he would do to my mom or me or my sisters.  I always felt like he might hit Read more

Children of Alcoholics – Share Their Stories

Neglect Is My Life

There are many trials in life that one must go though, and everybody deals with things differently.  Some write, some fight.  Everyone in my family seemed to drown their problems with alcohol. As a six year old, I didn’t’ see the Read more

God is the Source

February 17, 2010 by Dr. Clare · Leave a Comment
Filed under: Inspirational, Religion 

GOD IS THE SOURCE © Sandy Rodgers Ministries

I will wake up and live the life I Love, in Spirit and in Truth!!!

My source is God.

I am sustained in a power I will never be able to express in words. This power is God! The power of God is incredible, it is Awesome!

This power can turn war into peace.This power can transcend time and place. It is everywhere evenly distributed. It is a power that heals and harmonizes everything in its path.

I connect to my Infinite Source at all times. There is a power inside of me that is greater than any outside influence.

I rise up and greet this Power with my utmost respect. I rise up to welcome this Power into every small detail of my existence. I rise up!

I must be fully awake to utilize this Power. I choose to be aware of this Power.  I acknowledge this Power. I am this Power, in human expression.

There is a gift inside of me begging for expression through me. I know it, I feel, I can sense it. I live this life that has been but a dream. I fully engage in its reality. I give birth to it with ease, joy and peace. I am excited.

Wake up and fully live! Wake up and allow your uniqueness to flow, to water all of humanity. You are a gift.

I discover the life I sincerely Love. I live the life I Love! I Am the life I Love. God is my strength, my courage, my wisdom. With God I can conquer all fear and live victoriously. With God all things are possible! I Am charged with an unfailing attitude of Success!

Thanks God for choosing me to do the work that I alone am called to do. Thanks Creator for entrusting me with the gifts to make a contribution that benefits all of mankind.

I CAN.

I WILL.

I DO.

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Children of Alcoholics – Share Their Stories

In Dreams

Ever since I can remember, my mother was an alcoholic.  Only I didn’t know that she was an alcoholic.  And that wasn’t all that she was – she was also kind, talented, and funny.  She also struggled with a deep depression. When, as a teenager she told me that she was an alcoholic, I was angry.  Why hadn’t she told me before?  Shortly thereafter she moved out and I was so angry that visits were difficult.  I missed her.  Why can’t you just come back and take care of me? I needed her. I was always afraid to talk to her, to tell her honestly how her drinking affected me, because I was afraid that she would hurt herself.  She was always so sad and I didn’t want to be the person who pushed her over the edge. The hardest thing for me was not knowing who to expect.  Which person would I be talking to?  One mom was very different from the next.  It created a lot of stress and anxiety.  I also constantly worried about her and wished I could protect her from herself.  I know her life was not easy. We walked a fine line between fiery anger and deep, longing love.  I wanted more than anything for her to be the one mom that I adored. I got sick in my later teenage years and she was in rehab.  She took care of me and I know that she saved my life.  It was the single most incredible year of our lives together.  I actually got to know my mother as a person and came to understand who she was a lot more.  This 12 months is still so precious to me.  But it was only 12 months and soon after, she was back to drinking and our one year was gone like a mirage. The next couple of years were difficult with glimmers of good moments in them.  I was tired of playing the parent, of being the responsible one.  I was starting to see a pattern within my relationships with other people that really reminded me of my dynamics with my mother. My mom died almost two years ago.  Last night, she visited me in my dreams.  So often I feel like a small child, wanting her with such intensity that it feels like physical pain.  I wasn’t sure how this process of grieving for her would unroll.   I thought I would be consumed by guilt, for all of my anger and for all of the unrest and turmoil of our relationship.  But I am not and am starting to understand that my reaction was normal.  She visits me in my dreams and it’s always the same – she tells me that she loves me but that she cannot stay.  I am starting to realize that although I have lost her physical being, her physical presence in my life, she is still in my mind and my heart.  And we are still working on our relationship.

CHILDREN OF ALCOHOLICS WEEK

*February 14-20, 2010*

Approximately one out of every four children (25%) American children  are affected by or exposed to a family alcohol problems. This does not include children affected by or exposed to other drug problems. This text is being used as a buffer between this paragraph and the next until I can find a more Children of addicted parents are at increased risk for a range of problems, including physical illness, emotional disturbances, behavior problems, lower educational performance, and susceptibility to alcoholism or other addiction later in life.  Their needs often go unaddressed for a variety of reasons – some   emotional, some financial, and all very persistent. 

It doesn’t have to be that way!

Children of Alcoholics Week celebrates the recovery of children who Read more

National Health Observances – February 2010

February 1, 2010 by Dr. Clare · 5 Comments
Filed under: National Health Observances 

Often members of fragile families do not take the time to take care of their physical health.  Take the time to take of you! Pay attention to this month’s listing of National Health Observances.  Learn more….. National Child Passenger Safety Week National Children of Alcoholics Week National Condom Week National Eating Disorders Awareness Week Eating Disorders Screening Program Read more

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